It seems likely in present circumstance we're having our characters assassinated by the community around us. Familiar pattern, a family pattern. So we find ourselves dissecting conversations and behaviours to piece together what’s happening. Hurt of the past and fear of it repeating leads to fearful assessments the

I notice my desire to extend an overwhelming corrective force on those who attack me. Underpinning this is the belief if I strike back hard enough ill illicit sufficient fear in the other to dissuade them from attacking me further. This movement within me feels clinical. A cold

An endless ocean of questions is queued up within me awaiting resolution. I’m always asking why, and this morning it hits me how f'ing hard life is — relentlessly so. I want to know why im looping in this mornings pattern so I can fix it. Make

I wear glasses for distance vision, but really Im still not seeing clearly, and I’m noticing glasses are ineffectual to the real issue at hand. They deliver crisp outlines to what I see, but the deeper issue is im only actually seeing, which is to say acknowledging